7-19-2000~~11:25 am
"Kristine and Jill ROCK!!!"

wow. it's really something amazing that i'm up this early in the morning on my day off, right? that's what i was thinking...but i have my reasons. i took a therapeutic drive out to denton last night...it was really great. i had fun with kris and monica...just talking about everything. kris and i are okay...we just have a few things that we need to work on. who was i kidding to think that i could let her slip away from me? she's my red-headed twin...i can't live without her!!! that girl is amazing...we just had a misunderstanding with what she was trying to tell me...i took it the wrong way, but i had no other way to take it...i had no idea about what she was feeling. wait, i did, but i didn't quite understand the depth of everything she was telling me. but now it's past and we'll get through this...we can and we will.

jill, my lovely little pregnant jill...i love her to death!!! i hope that dylan michael is born soon...he's driving her crazy!! and i know that devin is driving her crazy...i just hope that she finds the strength to get through this. i know she will...she's jill...and she's strong. she has me, she has natalie and she has the strength of God behind her...she'll be just fine. i only hope that brat boy singer guy stops giving her shit...she needs his support through this, not his jerkiness...i mean really...he's the father...he needs to ACT like it!!!

kay...paul...my ex...see cast of characters...is trying to get some kind of booty call thing going....too bad i'm turning him down. i have a LOT more respect for myself than to return to his sorry ass. he's a jerk who thought he could walk all over me...think again!!!

natalie...i love you girl...and i know you're reading this!!! i hope your day has gone well...and GO HARBOR SOFTBALL!!! woohoo!! yeah...we have a game tonight...at 9:30...then i have all-star practice afterwards. go figure...it'll be like 10:30 or something...unless our game gets cancelled. the team we're playing has forfeited every game...oh well!! that'll be another win for us!!! we're 2-1 right now...soon to be 3-1. woohoo!!

i love kristine and i'm sorry that it had to come to this to make us realize how important we are to each other...really. but it was bound to happen with how i was acting...and everything. mmmkay...it's time to jump in the shower, especially since john will be here in 40 minutes...hehehe. i'm such a slacker!!!

oh yeah...and you know who is back in town...aaron. ask me if i've talked to him...c'mon, ask me. nope...not at all. i mean yeah, he just got back yesterday, but still...before he left i would have called him as soon as i got off work yesterday. and no matter how bad i really want to call him now, i'm not going to...not yet. i will soon though...i can feel it. maybe after john and i go for lunch? maybe...just maybe. i have all day...until like 8...so something could be done about this...all i know is that i really do want to see him...especially since i haven't really seen him since mid-june. it's been about a month...wow. that's a pretty long time...oh well!! shit happens!!

i love everyone!!

abby

quote:

"It's the good girls who keep diaries; the bad girls never have the time."

^^^right...since that's NOT me...but i like it anyways^^^