2-1-01~~ER is over...
"balls to the wall...i love him"

okay...so i did an extremely daring thing last night. i did it. i told him i loved him. something i've been playing with for a long, long time...and i did it. and i wasn't scared. i mean, of course i was scared to hear his reaction...but i wasn't scared of it. i love him and i couldn't hide it anymore. not any longer. he needed to know. and i think that he always knew...he had to. but i feel SO much better know that i have this off of my chest. he's amazing. for those of you who know him, know that things haven't always been the best between us, but, since i've been gone, we've gotten SO much closer. i can't even believe how much the distance has done to our friendship. every time i go home i have the best conversations with him...i find out so much about him and us and everything...damn. i miss him. waaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh.

so yeah...the guy i was talking about a few days ago, the one that i was jealous over...yeah. that's just SO not worth anything. i was hopeful...and i guess i'll always have that hope...because he once told me that fate will bring us together...but i don't think so. i am pretty sure that we're fated to be distant friends from here on out...but i will never forget how much you helped me at the beginning of the year. you showed me why i love this school...and helped me realize that i'm too trusting. thank you for all you have taught me to see in myself and in others.

okay...now that i feel wonderful...i've tanned today, i've swam today...now i'm going to bed. great night...great night.

abby

quote:

"When you are content to be simply yourself and don't compare or compete, everybody will respect you."

yeah...there's two today...

"Happiness is not a destination. It is a method of life."