1-28-01~~almost 10 at night
"in the hospital, so i didn't feel like writing"

yeah, i know i haven't updated in awhile, but there's great reasons for that. i've had some pretty busy and hectic days this week. to start things off, i hosted two girls this weekend from california and chicago. they were really cool...they stayed from thursday night to this morning...so my room has bee crammed. it feels SO great to have my room back to normal...it's clean too. it feels SO awesome to just have a clean room.

so thursday night was our last AA meeting before close-up, and it should be lots of fun. then friday. wow...that was a pretty awful day. to start off every monday, wednesday and friday, i have to go to organic chem...now, that class is the devil. it's horrendous i tell you. absolutely horrible. but yeah...i'm getting through it. so, my day was super-filled with stuff to do...i got out of classes at 3 and i had to be at work at three. work was fun, until i started getting a headache...then it was downhill from there. i ended the night in the hospital until 4:30 in the am. yeah...i had a really severe migraine...so bad that i passed out four times. yay. ewww. then comes saturday.

i cut ALL my hair off...it's really short. everyone likes it but me...i think i look like a boy. but hey, what can i do? nothing but let it grow and grow and grow. oh well...i did absolutely nothing saturday but relax...the shot i got at the hospital didn't wear off until around 9 or so that night. i went out with some friends, but still made it an early night. it's still really weird to see jerry...i can't explain it. i saw him last night with some other chic, and it was really strange. it's hard for me, because everytime i talk to him or see him, i just want him more. and, i don't know, i just ugh!!! i was jealous. there. i admit it. i was jealous of the ugly chic that was with him...because at one time, he wouldn't leave my side...yeah. i have something that i've been dying to tell him...and now i have the guts to say it...but i have no idea where he is. why is that crazy boy on my mind again? why? why?? i have no idea. so yeah...back to my story.

sunday...started off with me sleeping until noon. it was NICE. really nice. then my prospective students left...and erin and i got into a HUGE fight. screaming at each other for ten minutes...everyone in the hall heard...it was bad. really bad. this was around 2...and i just now saw her...it's weird. i have no idea. but i just finished my homework, took a nap, and took a shower, but not necessarily in the order. i'm really tired and really confused...and yeah. love you all...

abby

quote:

"Be happy while you're living, for you're a long time dead."