october 4~~morning
"let's dominate!!!"

is it the 4th? i have no idea. after last night/this morning, i believe i have lost all concept of time for the moment. and i'm quite alright with that. i spent last night with louis and matt over at tim's place, sleeping most of the time, watching louis and matt drool over gran turismo 3 the rest of the time. it's really nice to meet new people that you get along with. shit, that sounds so much like a hallmark gretting card. blah.

so in a couple weeks i'm going to indiana, that is if leigh can leave the state. i'm thinking that since it's a federal charge, she can leave the state, but not the country. who knows. all i know is that she got herself into a lot of shit, but she'll get out of it, and she'll be a stronger person because of it. i love you girl!!! oh yeah, back to my point. so i'm going to indiana soon. the last time i had planned to go to indiana i chickened out, but it was also bad timing, too soon, all kinds of fucked up reasons you want to apply, they work. but now i'm ready. i'm happy, i'm excited to see everyone. god, i miss candice and jerry and jessica and danielle and heather. shit, if i missed you, i'm sorry, but i *do* miss you!! it's really weird. it's like indiana was all just a dream that happened a long time ago that i'm just revisiting. but once, it was home to me. and to many others, it's home to them. those are the ones i miss...the ones i love.

i was studying in the library for like, 5 hours straight yesterday, and i got to my car and found out that i missed so much in the world. 5 hours and i hadn't heard a word about the plane being hijacked in india. of course, i heard about the slit up greyhound driver that morning...but what the fuck is going on with the world? really...wouldn't you think that the point has been proven? and please, america, can we get over our patriotism? not to say that i don't possess any, because i do, but the post-tragedy dramatic outpouring of red, white and blue is getting fucking annoying. i hate to sound like a cynic, but please. the overabundance of new flags on cars, new stickers (you can tell they're new b/c they're blinding white) on bumpers, stars and stripes all over the fucking place. c'mon now...i know where i live. i'm an american and i'm fucking proud, but i'm over it. yeah, it was traumatic and sad and fucking scary as hell what happened...but it was almost a month ago. i'm not trying to be insensitive and thoughtless, because i know thousands of people are without loved ones right now. but the constant reminder of flags and pride aren't helping. what we need to do is try to push our president into action. now, being from texas while in indiana during the election i got lots of slack for g. dubya, and i always stood behind him. hell, i'm texan and i'm proud. but that's beside the point. what we need is action. c'mon dubya, kill someone over this. fight back. you know who did it. you know where they are. let's go smolder someone. i want war!!! it's something huge that's happening in my lifetime. as long as you can guarantee it won't fuck up my life more than it already is, let's go for it!! she has the best quote on her page...

"The United States is preparing to strike, directly and decisively, against you, whoever you are, just as soon as we have a rough idea of your identity and a reasonably decent estimate as to where your base is located." --the onion

well, that was a shitload of info for an update today...i think i'm going to go do something else productive...since i'm wired and all. wanna know why? well, you'll have to ask me that one yourself...

oh, and a special shout out to wesley, my newfound reader and friend...i need some way to talk to you...aim, yahoo, you name it!!! we gotta chat!!