the twelfth of july~~6 pm
"bad bad BAD day"

i had a terrible day at work. it was just awful. i won't even start to go into details...but it all ended up with me not even being able to talk about it. at all...i just can't. it was horrible. trust me.

and i seem to be getting irritated with natalie about every little thing and i have no idea why...i'm sure she'll have ideas why as soon as i talk to her about it...but i don't know. i'm just getting frustrated with her...i thought she really wanted to spend time with me last night...but she just wanted someone to spend the night. how do i know this? yeah, she really wanted to go home...but she invited helen over when i didn't want to...i just wanted to sleep in my own bed. and she told me that when tonya and co. moved in that she would be spending lots of time over here...riiiiight. mmmkay, so yeah, that's not happening. i totally understand the whole thing about wanting to sleep in her own bed when she has to open, but what about when she doesn't? oh well...i'm just pissy. i wanted to get that out though.

i'm pumped...really, i am. i am so excited to go out to denton to stay with kris tonight. we have a softball game at 7, then i'm coming home, cleaning up and heading out there. i have to go to the dr. tomorrow morning though...i'm scared. anyone who's talked to me lately knows why........

but yeah, nat wants me to go to have a nice day cafe tonight...and i want to go...but the timing's been wrong every week. last week, i wanted to spend time with david. and we had a great conversation. i can talk to him about anything and everything...i always have been able to. and tonight...i'm going to denton. i felt horrible about not talking to kris until last week...so i made plans. i felt just horrible, and she leaves friday for georgia...so i want to see her. i need her right now. nat and i aren't clicking and that really bothers me...i'm sure it's all my fault though...it always is. and you know what? i just take it...i take all the bitching and i'm always the one to give in. and i will be this time...because i don't want to lose her as a friend...go figure.

well, i need to jet...i have to get ready to go to my game...

my bum is on the swedish...

abby

quote:

"Imagination is the one weapon in the war against reality."