tha 3rd of march~~nighttime?
"harbor training stuff"

i'm thinkin this is like, my second entry i march, to which i shall soon arhive...when i'm not lazy. yeah, i'm at home. my last night at UE was REALLY hard for me...i didn't think it would be that hard at all. but, it was. the girls on my floor threw a surprise going away party for me...i've never had a surprise party and i LOVED it!!! i really want to go back, when i get the chance, i know i'm loved and i'll be missed. then...soon afterwards, i spent a couple hours with jerry. you guys remember jerry, right? if you don't, go read the end of august and the beginning of september...you'll understand. so yeah, i knew that if i had told him about my plan to leave, he's the only one that would have even a CHANCE to talk me out of it, so i chose wisely, and decided not to tell him until my last night in town. yeah, so we talked for a couple hours and i'm going to miss him incredibly. we only talked every two or three weeks or so, if that much, but he was one of the best friends i had there...everything was just right with us. i can't explain our relationship, but it seemed like the more time we had between us, the closer we got. i could easily fall for that boy...easily. while, the whole time, i feel myself growing further from aaron. the feelings will always be here, as he's the most amazing person i know right now. he's just unexplainably helpful to me and if only timing was different. but it's not. and copeland doesn't know i'm in town...he has NO idea!!! i can't wait to tell him...i've been trying to get ahold of him on his cell, but i've been completely unsucessful. like, really unsucessful. and the boy doesn't have voicemail, or else it would be lots easier.

yeah, so i told my boss at the harbor, meg, why i'm home, and i'll soon tell the rest of the staff...when they're all together, if that'll happen anytime soon, which i doubt it will, but you know, it's all good! training today was tons of fun, but i'm dead tired...so i think i'm going to sleep. more later...

abby

"Never be bullied into silence. Never allow yourself to be made a victim. Accept no one's definition of your life; define yourself."