18th times 2~~ER is on...figure it out
"random thoughts by yours truly"

no more anger, la la la la la la. but, it is time for ***drumroll, please***

Random Thoughts From Abby

to start, a little dissertation i wrote in psych class:

once a child
once lost and scared
just happy with life, but missing out
now an adult
not yet, not today
almost there
still lost, still scared
chemicals depending on man for smiles
for tears for laughs
reliance unwanted, unneeded
still lost, still scared
going through the motions
acting normal
what is normal?
nobody is normal
not me, not you, but me?
still lost, still scared
but i'll keep going
on with my days
trying to figure me out
knowing i never will
sometimes i have to say
you know, it's alright
to be nineteen and
still lost, still scared

all done. you happy? there's more random thoughts to follow...like, these:

so, did you ever think about the guy that decided that the main ingredient in a normal salad would be lettuce? i mean, why did he decide to make it lettuce? why not something creative like mushrooms? or, i don't know...big pieces of cheese or something? wouldn't that be weird? i don't know...i was just thinking. and yeah...the person who named potatoes...why didn't he name the potato crouton and name the crouton potato? that's just weird. and another thing...do you think that God was just having fun when he decided to make giraffes and the duck-billed platypus? i think so, because honestly...what purpose do those weird animals serve? absolutely none. yeah...so that's just weird. kay. i'm done.

i've always said that i'd be okay as long as i just found someone to love...to REALLY love and to sweep me off my feet. i want candlelight dinners and walks in the rain and roses and back massages and all-night talks and everything that means i will be loved like i want. is that too much to ask?? oh yeah...oh well.

so as you can all tell, i'm in a great mood...i went for a LONG swim...which ALWAYS releives some stress. not to mention that it felt SOOOOO great. i love swimming and this was wonderful. i just want to live in the water. i want a waterbed. seriously. BAD. really bad. okay...enough for me. i need some water. layta.

abby

quote:

"Most of the important things in the world have been accomplished by people who have kept on trying when there seemed to be no hope at all."