9-7-00~~midnight and 45 minutes
"a letter to a friend"

so i really just have one main question that i'm going to spawn off of and i need some responses to this one. why is it that people avoid the truth to keep from hurting one another, and leave everything up in the air, just another night...so that one person, if not both, get restless sleep, if any, and nobody really gets hurt? well, i got hurt, not badly...just a little pain :), and nothing was resolved...except for the fact that i can't do shit. nothing...at all. and that sucks. i like to have control in a situation...i like to know what's ooing on...and i can't. i don't. but you know what? that's really okay...it is. and that's just life. sometimes you win some, sometimes you lose. i didn't lose, but i'm lost right now...i'm so confused about what's going on. and i think you are too...but it's okay. that's also life. take it as it is...have fun, and take your time. but remember, i came here to get away...from my past, from my mistakes...to start over. i love my friends at home...i love who i was there and what i had around me. but NONE of that is here now, but me. nothing but me and the memories that i treasure. and you have a lot of them...you know a lot of them...and yes, you ARE a special person. ask anyone...i don't just open up to anyone. really. and it hurts to know that you're with her...only why didn't you tell me sooner? why did you feel that you had to hide it? i knew something was going on...why didn't you tell me? oh well...what has happened is over...and that's life. i'll take what i can get. but i want more!!! that's just the spoiled little brat in me coming out...figures. decide what you want and remember that i came here to be a new person...not totally new...but to start over. and i'm doing that now. i had to tell someone who i was and the mistakes that i'm trying to get away from. but what you see now is the person i am. take it for what you see AND what you know...and always follow your heart...it won't lead you wrong.

abby

quote:

"Action may not always bring happiness, but there is no happiness without action."