3-15-01~~yeah, it's early again
"violence...why? why?"

Sugar High (Gotta Have It, Really Need It To Get By) Sugar High

perfect. well, not entirely perfect.

so here i sit, awake once again WAY before i'd like to be...and i have a warm and squishy feeling. i must have had great dreams...too bad i don't remember them. ahhh, the feeling of the cold air from my fan on the back of my neck...today will be a good day. i just know it will.

i don't wanna take advice from fools, i just figure everything is cool, until i hear it from you

my life is good...it really is. i have wonderful parents, i have amazing friends coming in and out of my life daily, like it's their job, and i love them for it. so why am i so miserable, you ask? well, it's not that i walk around crying and frowning all the time. i'm actually smiling most of the time...happy and hard to bring down. but it's when you get inside my head that you find the daarkness that i proclaim to be inside my soul. you find the spiral of lowness...it scares everyone...including me.

his name isn't warren. his name isn't warren. his name isn't warren? i thought his name was warren?

i had a REALLY good, old friend call me last night, out of nowhere it seemed, and it was just really great. so, i need to rave about something really quickly: what happened to cartoons in the mornings? i really wish that some stations had a clue and would start showing cartoons again. i mean really...the news is great, especially since they show the weather every 5 minutes and traffic every 10. honestly, how many people who need that stuff daily are going to be watching a television at this time of the morning? think logically people, please!!!

damn the man, save the empire

quite a few of you have written me about my secret...well, HA! i'm not telling yet!!! not only do i not want to jinx anything, but it's really kinda fun being this e-vile. ha, i say that like i've never been like this before.

ugh...good morning america is doing a bit about violence in school. see, i have a couple things to say about this. first-parents, c'mon...jump in and DO something about this!! second-do i really want to be a high school teacher? hell yeah i do...i want to make a difference, i want to help. third-the kids they have on here are NY students...obviously...not EVERY school is the same. yeah, multiple school shootings have shown that repeat offensives, so called "copycat" criminals are apparant in the world, but parents, don't pull your kids out of their school because of something that happened somewhere else. i know it's a completely different situation if it's happening at YOUR school, but if it's not, just nose around and find out what your kids are up to. in fact, you shouldn't have to nose, you should just keep an active presence in your child's life. you shouldn't have to wonder if your kid is going to become one of those. and if it happens in your school, to your kid, i'm sorry....i really am. i do have a heart, but i do have some criticism for parents today...you're paranoid!!! give your kids back their lives, but take part in it, be there...take action and stop acting like you care and REALLY CARE!!!

all those colors long since faded and all our smiles were confiscated. never were we told we'd be bought and sold, we were innocent

you know, i really never thought the world would come to this, but i guess it was inevitable, huh? what's next? really, what's next? are our toddlers going to rebel? really...i'm curious. when i was six, when i was seven, i watched cartoons that didn't hold very much, if any, violent action deemed necessary for entertainment. what makes kids so drawn to violence today? why? enough raving for today...i need to get ready for work.

abby

quote:

"History is a vast early warning system."